Friday, April 23, 2010

Of Puffins and Daycare

I have a dilemma. I work. I have a seven month old. Since Toby was 2 months old his aunt has been living with us and taking care of him in our home. She leaves us in a month to work on a Puffin Cruise in Damariscotta. We visited the daycare a friend uses today. They are lovely people. It is a loving, nurturing environment. It is cleaner than I could ever get my house. It is the price we had budgeted for (which still has Husby reaching for a part time night job). It is in a great location. Dear friends of ours have two children there. My Dilemma is this... I want to stay home. I never thought I would want to stay home and by the time I was done with maternity leave I was itching to get back to a world of Grown Ups. But I want my son to spend his days at home with someone who loves him and will hug him. I don't want him to be in someone else's home from 7.30 am to 5.15 everyday. I want to play with him and teach him and take him on field trips. But that darned mortgage eats one entire month's paycheck and so we need the second income. I have prayed about this so much my head hurts and I know his plans for me are bigger than I can see. But I want to stay home with my baby.

And yes you heard me correctly, a Puffin Cruise in Damariscotta.

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2 comments:

  1. Sarah, I so can relate. We are going through basically the same thing right now! I have prayed and prayed about this as well. It is hard to be away for roughly 10 hours a day. I often feel like a visiting parent (not completely, but you know what I mean). Our sweet girl has been in a two day a week school for a year now, and she loves it. I know she is growing and learning and that it is good for her, but I want to be more involved in her day-to-day than I am. My sweet mom has taken care of her since 6 weeks old and soon we will have to face full time care, as my mom is ready to just be grandma and not nanny. I will be praying for your situation. This too shall pass.

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  2. In regards to your comment on my post: I freeze by using these small tupperware containers, find them at the grocery store, some are round, some square, but they are small enough that you can set it right in the basket and do the defrost mode. Works great!

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