I have a dilemma. I work. I have a seven month old. Since Toby was 2 months old his aunt has been living with us and taking care of him in our home. She leaves us in a month to work on a Puffin Cruise in Damariscotta. We visited the daycare a friend uses today. They are lovely people. It is a loving, nurturing environment. It is cleaner than I could ever get my house. It is the price we had budgeted for (which still has Husby reaching for a part time night job). It is in a great location. Dear friends of ours have two children there. My Dilemma is this... I want to stay home. I never thought I would want to stay home and by the time I was done with maternity leave I was itching to get back to a world of Grown Ups. But I want my son to spend his days at home with someone who loves him and will hug him. I don't want him to be in someone else's home from 7.30 am to 5.15 everyday. I want to play with him and teach him and take him on field trips. But that darned mortgage eats one entire month's paycheck and so we need the second income. I have prayed about this so much my head hurts and I know his plans for me are bigger than I can see. But I want to stay home with my baby.
And yes you heard me correctly, a Puffin Cruise in Damariscotta.